feeling...

"i still love you....can't you feel that?"

i recently found a page in an old journal of mine that consisted of only this quote. i cant for the life of my remember where i heard it, but i definitely remember the feeling. it gave me chills. more than just hearing someone say the words "i love you"...imagine the FEELING. deep in your stomache, much more prominent than anything you hold in your mind. i have days where i wonder what true love feels like...since the first thing that pops in my mind when i hear the phrase 'true love' is 'husband'...but then i close my eyes and remember all the different forms of love. love between parents and their children. between sisters. between friends. and i get that feeling. to honestly, unconditionally love those people in my life. its so much more than just a mind-thing. its an all over, from the top of my head to the tips of my toes feeling.

and my joy from that feeling makes me really excited to experience the husband/wife kind of love someday...i see couples like my parents, who have been married forever and still make each other laugh, and my sister and brother in law who continue to act like giddy teenagers together, and larissa and mark, who are so far beyond best-friend status it amazes me. i hope to have the chance to find someone who thrills me the way they all seem to thrill each other. i'd love to experience that sort of love.

i dont know who, if anyone, will even read this...but if someone is...i want you to sit back, close your eyes, and think about someone you love...whoever that is. just sit and FEEL it. dont just KNOW it....focus on the way it affects your stomache....and your smile! the comfort. the joy. the honesty. ahhhh...it amazes me.