how big i'm blessed.

just found another francesca song that speaks to me.

This is the Stuff.

I lost my keys in the great unknown
And call me please
Cause I can't find my phone

(CHORUS)
This is the stuff
That drives me crazy
This is the stuff
That's getting to me lately
In the middle of my little mess
I forget how big I'm blessed
This is the stuff
That gets under my skin
But I've gotta trust
You know exactly what Your doing
Might not be what I would choose
But this is the stuff You use

45 in a 35
Sirens and fines
While I'm running behind

(CHORUS)

To break me of impatience
Conquer my frustrations
I've got a new appreciation
It's not the end of the world...

This is the stuff
That drives me crazy
This is the stuff
Someone save me
In the middle of my little mess
I forget how big I'm blessed
This is the stuff
That gets under my skin
But I've gotta trust
You know exactly what Your doing
Might not be what I would choose
But this is the stuff You use

Needs Improvement

im selfish.

i wish to not be.

im self-absorbed.

i wish to not be.

ive been noticing more and more how much i talk about myself, and worry about myself, and that i dont put as much effort into other people as i used to. or as much as i would like to. there are so many amazing people in my life...i want to spend more time thinking of them, and listening to their stories, and making them feel loved and taken care of. worry less about my own petty thoughts. pay more attention to them. they deserve it. they deserve much more than ive been giving lately. and i really want that to change.

and i need to stop taking things so personally. not everything is about me.

and i would like to improve my communication skills. be more honest. be more direct. stop tiptoe-ing around subjects out of fear. stop ignoring issues until they reach the point of explosion.

theres so much more to life.

*extremely random and not thought-out blog entry. i would also like to acknowledge some incredible lyrics that mary shared with me today. francesca battistelli rocks:

Burn up the interstate got somewhere you need to be
Your
Not gonna let nobody slow you down
Turn off the radio and turn up your telephone
You don't have time to smell the roses now
Oh but take a second maybe
Before it gets too loud
Breathe before your breath runs out
Don't try so hard to move past the moment
These days go by
And they're gone before you know it
So come on open your window
Let the light shine in
This is life don't miss it
What if you took the time to really suck it in
Cause someday your gonna wish you did
Like a September morning
Like snow without a warning
Like how the summer feels upon your skin
But take a minute maybe
Before the sun goes down
Breathe before your breath runs out
Don't try so hard to move past the moment
These days go by
And they're gone before you know it
So come on open your window
Let the light shine in
This is life don't miss it
(this is life)
Just take a second maybe
Before the sun goes down
Breathe before your breath runs out
Don't try so hard to move past the moment
These days go by
And they're gone before you know it
So come on open your window
Let the light shine in
This is life don't miss it
(this is life)
Don't miss it
Don't miss it